Saturday, Sunday, Monday

Saturday, best class ever.  Ate bad this day!  BAD

Sunday, could not move RA was bad hands, elbows, etc.

Monday - went in just to breath and go.  

Feel great now!

Did a Double - Back to Back Zeb

I am now - 23 short of my 60 day challenge.

I mentioned yesterday that I feel as though I am on my last layer of the onion (stress) and that I think it is built up from Daddy's cancer.

Well, yesterday I was just exhausted - so tired that at times I could not breath, stand, balance, nothing.  Really I don't know if it was exhaust but it was something.  That something I fear and just don't want to have this feeling at all.  

The first class was hard, not normal.  I could not do the laying postures.  I just felt funny, my legs where shaking, my fingers tingled, and my head, wow, it was doing something so crazy I could not believe the feeling.  I was going to pass on the double, but right before, I felt like this sudden burst of energy (that lasted 15 min) so I took the next class.

The second class it was the standing series that I had a problem with, which is good because the laying series is really where your body is put through the challenge.  

I got to the dreaded camel, I decided I wanted to lay it out, Zeb called me out, I got up and tried to push it through.  Again all those emotions come rushing to the head.  Same as the first class.  It was crazy, scary, something that I really feared and still fear.  I think it is all the stress from my dad.  After the 1st set is complete, I roll forward, just trying to balance out, Zeb's saying roll over roll over, I do it rushes like a river.  2nd set, started all over again, rushes, I am breathing and just trying to make it through the set.  I stop 10 seconds into it, roll over.  Finally done!

End of class, I get in the car, and bust out crying!  All the way home - Called Daddy just to tell him how much I love him and how much he means to me.  Cried on the phone to him!  (Then he had to go to say go bye to someone) So that was over!

Now, I am wondering if there is anything onion left!  Lets hope not, because I am a runner not a fighter.

25 Left

So, I have decided that I am going to, for the next 25 days eat right!  I haven't figured out what that means yet, I do know I will NOT give up drinking (HA).

So this morning:

Fruit Smooth with a Red Bull kick!  Six pack watch out.  

LOVE IT!

Day 34 - did a double

Well, I did it.  I have two classes to make up and I completed a double.  

First class - it was great.  I had all the moves, even though I was really tight.  I was able to push through the pain and get to the edge.  Half-moon was great!  Class was with Lynette, of course I like her just because she brings out the best all the time.

Second class - with Zeb.  I am starting to really like him.  His voice is so motivating it is crazy.  He really makes you go to the edge, really to the point where you want to hit him and walk out.  Ha, actually he did have someone walk out yesterday, oh and leave.  I made it through everything, triangle, cobra, I must have cheated on locus, but that is ok, I made it through my second.

Zeb is the same instructor that told me I might be holding on to some stress when it comes to camel and that I need to work through that stress in order to continue through my development in Yoga!  (Sounds so business)  Well, I might have experienced a break through.  After the second push through on camel, I came up thinking and praying for my Dad.  Just laid there and prayed.  I felt a little sick, but not like I have been.  I have heard that you can cry in this posture, and I am waiting for my big cry.  Maybe today!  I plan on taking back to back Zeb classes.  What a challenge!  

Also, in Zeb's class, not only did we get a leaver, we got a cryer!  Amazing how people have all this crazy emotion inside them that it just lets out.  I gave her a high five, just because it is suppose to be good stuff emotionally.

So, on 35 classes 

Need 25 

Yea Babbbbby!  Almost THERE

Day 33 - Zeb

Boy do I love camel!  Ha whatever!

I have nothing else to say but I still can't believe I am doing this.

I need to focus on what is making want to vomit during camel every time I take Zeb's class, what is this stress that is in the middle part of my body that I can't work past.  To me it is just called my BUDDA BELLy

Hand Hurting

So, my RA is bothering me in the hands today.  I have two more blemishes on the face.  And, just chatted with someone who said to make my own face soap to kill it off.  I need help!

Day 32 - Bikram Yoga Challenge

Sorry it has been so long since I have posted - Sunday.  I have hated going everyday of the challenge this week.  Once I get past the first breathing exercise, I am set to go, I push to the limit, then I shower and then I hate the fact that I am so sore.  I need a back rub so bad - Thursday might be the day for for that rub.

Good things, I am making it, everyday, but I am making it.  I actually did the toe stand and both hands came up today, I was literally on my toe (right toe) everything else folded up and I am sitting there must have lasted about 5 seconds.  Then this big old smile came on my face which made everything else fall apart.

Bad things, my face is breaking out.  I feel like (35 was nothing compared to what I am going through right now) I am going not through my teens because I did not break out like this, but something like I can't get my face clean and I need to be on the ads of Proactive or something.

Ok - lets talk about proactive.  I bought into this system 4 months ago (still in Memphis) this stuff DOES not work.  It is not keeping the white heads away.  So I found this Murad under my sink.  I think one of my Memphis friends gave it to me.  I just need to figure out who, but I have washed with this stuff, 5 times now (3 times today).  I love this stuff.  I just need to figure out if I need to by this from my friend in Memphis (who I don't know who it is) or do I just go on line and purchase.  But for some reason this stuff is keeping my face DRY!  That is what I need.

Ok, back to the bad.

I hate going to YOGA!  It has been such a challenge just getting in the car, then driving there, and then I sit out side the room for about 15 min and just I can't get up!  I have been going with a lady down the street we will call her "D."  She has been giving me strength to go, just because we are in the car together, so if I pick her up she has to go, and she picks me up, I have to go.  It works.  I haven't missed a day. 

Today and yesterday, I have felt like I was coming down with the flu.  Yesterday throat sore, today, just body hurts.  It is ok, I just could not walk or do a thing.  Tyler, son wanted to go out for a ride so I had to get my life back to normal quickly.

The Big thing is I am hating the YOGA!  HATING IT!

I was asked today, by my new boss lady, why the challenge?  What, why the challenge?  I sat on the question for a couple of minutes, then I realized, I have no reason.  So I responded, I am a follower and everyone else was doing it so I joined in!  Does that not sound like the worst reason EVER!  Why the challenge, I could not come up with to lose weight, to get healthy, to become fore flexible, nothing!  I am doing it because everyone else is.  I didn't even do a before and after picture, nor did I weigh, nor did I even measure myself.  WHY THE CHALLENGE!

I AM A FOLLOWER and this JUST PROVES IT!

I am breaking out, I can't walk, and I am tired all the time, I can't even bend down at times all because everyone else was doing it!

Here is the thing, now that I am committed, I will not give up!  My goodness what is with me!

29th Day - Libby's class

It is so funny, I just didn't want to be there today and I just didn't want to do the postures.  But, I had the greatest class.  I was inspired, I was even told to push harder during one posture, WOW!  For someone not wanting to be there to be told to go deeper is pretty good!

It just seemed like everything was there, my balance, my concentration, my postures, everything.  I was even on the hot side of the room and I didn't pass out. 

Camel - I attacked it!  I went for everything, but no tears no fears.  I just didn't laid down and did it again.  I could have stayed in it today for about a minute.

Everything feels good, I am not tired, I am ready to work, play and just have fun.

Oh, and I ate a foot long hotdog before class (about 2 hours) and I didn't feel like tossing the meal up.

YIPPPPPEEEE!  It must have been the watermelon or the grapes I ate yesterday.

Duffy's inspiring ME

I am now pondering the 100 day!  I want the 60 - 90 day thing that says you look great.

I just need to make this emotional stuff, it is hard, I just have no power to get up and make it.  But, I will today 2:30.

Made it!

I made it to Yoga today, but I must have started my mind out bad because it was a hard practice.

I noticed how difficult it would be during the first breathing exercise.  Then I did the half moon - my body started to crunch all over the place and boy did it hurt.  by the time I made it to triangle I felt like my noise was going to blow out or my entire brain was going to blow out.  So I sat out a couple postures and then we hit the floor.  Well the first sit up lost me and it was down hill from there.  

So, I have decided that I am on my last level of stress before my six pack comes out.  It doesn't have anything to do with the fact that I drink, eat bad, etc.  It is just stress that is about to pop out!

Strength to Go

I really don't feel like leaving the HOUSE today!  What is wrong with me?  Who in their right mind would commit to such a long lasting challenge.

Side Effects

I just have to describe my side effects.  I am so TIRED lately.  To the point I can't do a thing and I pass out at 9:30 ever night.  Plus, my face is breaking out.  I feel like I am going through my teens again because the hormones are going crazy.

Also, thinking of buying a contour machine.  Maybe that will help me get the 6 pack that I want.

I was asked if I have started to run yet, training for a marathon by January.  Wellllllll, goal is to run this week at least 3 miles.  Lets go TeddyRae!

27th Day of Challenge - plus need 2 for make up

Today's class was with the instructor that is just out right hard.  We are 4 postures into the class and a lady walks out about to pass out, gets to the door and starts to shake and could not move.  Two other ladies run to our aid, we all stand there and the hard instructor walks over to her helps her out to the lobby for the others outside to help her.  We quickly learned she ate some heavy dairy right before practice, didn't drink much water, and didn't eat much last night.  Never never do a class with this type of food in your stomach, you will start to feel sick.  The hardest part was it was her first class.....

As for me, he kicked my butt again!  I got to triangle and could not make the second set.  My head started to spin, and I could not get control of my breathing.  That there is the key if you can't control your breathing you are done.  It was really a good feeling, just because I felt as though I was really working my body.  (Actually I do work out harder in his classes just because I don't want him to win.  :)  )  

Regardless, I didn't sleep well, didn't really eat much for dinner but I did have plenty of water, coconut water, and a breakfast to keep me going.  I just could not handle the words Push Push PUSH!  Ha what are you talking about PUSH!  You push you are just standing there telling us what to do PUSH! 

Oh, and when we got to Camel - we played a game.  One it for a min, at 30 second he would tell us, then if you want to continue to hold, keep on holding.  Me I gave up at 40 -45.  I was so jealous of all the others that pushed themselves.  It was great!  Today I was a quitter!

Bikram Yoga 60 Day Challenge

Ha -

So there is this person doing the 60 day challenge with me and I came to his blog, loved it because it is part of Google, so I signed up.

Now, to tell everyone what I have been doing in my 60 day challenge.  I am on day 28 minus 2 days (have to pull a double some place) so really at 26.  

Life has been ok.  I went to the 4:30 class today and thought I was ready to pull of a great flexible class only to get stuck in half moon and could not move.  The rest of the class was used to work through all the pain and pain and pain that I apparently had all over my body.

So for the 26 days, I have had the following problems:

back - upper and lower

feet - can't seem to wear shoes anymore - so I am in my running shoes with orthotics (gotta love google spell check)

hamstrings - I can't even straighten my knees out any more with out the pain shooting up the entire leg

and my face - why my face because of all the pain I have been in pushing myself with each posture.

Being at day 26 I know have to deal with the fact that I need help just going to the studio.  Yesterday, I allowed everything to get in the way, now the reason for a double being required so I can complete the 60 day.

So, I have been wondering if I am addicted to the stuff, and today I will tell you "NO."  

Monday I went to the 4:30 class, only to get an instructor who is just "Hard."  Well he really pushed you through the camel to the point that I wasn't going to let him bet me.  I actually was loving him up to that point, came out of camel hating him.  At the end of class I told him my feelings, and he told me I had so stress worked up in my camel that needed to be released.  Guess what, today, I almost passed out, started to cry, tossed up my lunch all because of camel.  Was he RIGHT!  Well apparently!  I must assume it has to do with my family leaving with me the past few months and all the built up energy and the fact that the family moved out (Daddy in remission).  I don't know.  I just know it was the worst I have felt in camel in my life!

Also took a private class last Friday, turns out 75% of my moves are wrong and I am starting all over. HAHA

Once this is over, I will start to train for a marathon - so life should get back to normal!