1. My Memories, no one can take those away
2. My ability to see the best out of all situations
3. Tyler not matter how much he talks
4. Cancer, just because every step back is 5 steps forward for the next person
5. Life! Because I need to live in the moment and realize the future is nothing without those you love
Little Man at the beach!
Beach Model
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Two weeks since Daddy Passed
I miss you Daddy - http://web.me.com/billigc/Lamar_Corbitt/Movie_%28medium_size%29.html
More than you can imagine, I miss your smile, your life outlook, your joy for just hanging out and not worring about the small things, your ability to just think the world of those around you, and your ability to love un-conditionally. I just hope I take what you taught me these year and teach the same values to Tyler. Family is important, and immediate family is even more important.
We are ok, but still wish your phone calls were coming in.
CANCER SUCK!
More than you can imagine, I miss your smile, your life outlook, your joy for just hanging out and not worring about the small things, your ability to just think the world of those around you, and your ability to love un-conditionally. I just hope I take what you taught me these year and teach the same values to Tyler. Family is important, and immediate family is even more important.
We are ok, but still wish your phone calls were coming in.
CANCER SUCK!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Daddy Passed
My house feels so empty and I don't know why. I feel like I need to be some place and not here in Houston. I miss him so much and it hurts to look at the last few pictures I have of him. Will I find signs of him around like others do, I hope so. I sure did love him and will miss him. I even seem to be talking to him.
Monday, December 15, 2008
12 Week Body Challenge
Starting on January 1 - I am starting this 12 Week Body Challenge with two individual that I respect personally and professionally. This 12 week challenge should help me find who I am again. I have in the past - looked and found someone who enjoyed life, enjoyed being with certain individuals, and someone who enjoyed exercise.
My ending goal is all I want to discuss - I want to find my joy again! I want to make sure that I am healthy and strong for Tyler. I want to be able to celebrate every minute by running around without getting tired with Tyler. I want to grow old and watch Tyler run around with his first child, I want to be able to live long and healthy and not slowly go under as I get older. I want to be healthy!
I don't want to be a person that hold guilt and pain, I want to exercise it out again!
My ending goal is all I want to discuss - I want to find my joy again! I want to make sure that I am healthy and strong for Tyler. I want to be able to celebrate every minute by running around without getting tired with Tyler. I want to grow old and watch Tyler run around with his first child, I want to be able to live long and healthy and not slowly go under as I get older. I want to be healthy!
I don't want to be a person that hold guilt and pain, I want to exercise it out again!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Daddy!
So - last week Daddy was rushed to the Hospital about 2 /12 months after his Stem Cell at Moffitt. Everyone was worried that his body was shutting down from the transplant and everything was going wrong.
Turns out, Daddy has cancer again! In his Bone Marrow, this is the same place that he were he first discovered his cancer.
So now:
Large B-Cell Lymphoma Oct 2007
CNS Involvment - March 2008
Stem Cell - Sept 2008
Large B-Cell Lymphoma Nov 2008
I have also learned that since he returned from my house in July to be with his family in Florida, he has been given H-ll all about me. Here is the saddest thing, his family blames me for his cancer and that I have been the cause of everything.
Needless to say, I am leaving Daddy today, who is in the ICU, because I am toxic to his relationship with his family and I am not wanted here!
Turns out, Daddy has cancer again! In his Bone Marrow, this is the same place that he were he first discovered his cancer.
So now:
Large B-Cell Lymphoma Oct 2007
CNS Involvment - March 2008
Stem Cell - Sept 2008
Large B-Cell Lymphoma Nov 2008
I have also learned that since he returned from my house in July to be with his family in Florida, he has been given H-ll all about me. Here is the saddest thing, his family blames me for his cancer and that I have been the cause of everything.
Needless to say, I am leaving Daddy today, who is in the ICU, because I am toxic to his relationship with his family and I am not wanted here!
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Hurricane Ike
Our first real Hurricane! We are about to experience what coastal people have experienced for years. A Hurricane!
Houston is CRAZY! You would think, coming from Florida, this would be no big deal. Well, it is. Yesterday I needed to buy gas and the gas lines were 10 cars deep. So I picked a gas station that was clearly charging more 10 cents per gallon, just so I would not have to wait in line. By the time Craig got around to purchasing gas, premium, a lot of the gas stations where out of the regular gas that people were screaming at the stations. Not to mention, the guy in front of Craig pulled out 10 8 gallon cans to start filling those up. Here is where Craig's New York personality came out. Apparently the fellow was scared of Craig, and then when Craig realized Tyler was in the car with him he stopped.
Grocery stores! OMG - you would not believe how crazy Sam's was, not to mention all the other stores I drove past. We always have water in the house, so I didn't need to get that, but all the isles (middle) was filled with water stacked up and people were rushing to the middle running over us and everything. I did have to snap at a lady, who almost ran over Tyler with the cart. People it is just wind, rain, a child's life is more important - and if you need it that bad, let me give you mine!
So I did load up with beer, wine, chips, beef jerky, and tuna. What a great combo! We have meat in the freezer we can always grill, so no big deal.
It reminds me of the storm that hit Memphis. What was funny about that storm, we didn't get a warning that thing came from no place and then we were out of everything and the stores would not open. Not to mention, that being without power in that city was a little more nerve racking. Here we have had 5 days to prepare, personally I like the out of no where. Because people are more normal and not a pain in the A*&.........
Houston is CRAZY! You would think, coming from Florida, this would be no big deal. Well, it is. Yesterday I needed to buy gas and the gas lines were 10 cars deep. So I picked a gas station that was clearly charging more 10 cents per gallon, just so I would not have to wait in line. By the time Craig got around to purchasing gas, premium, a lot of the gas stations where out of the regular gas that people were screaming at the stations. Not to mention, the guy in front of Craig pulled out 10 8 gallon cans to start filling those up. Here is where Craig's New York personality came out. Apparently the fellow was scared of Craig, and then when Craig realized Tyler was in the car with him he stopped.
Grocery stores! OMG - you would not believe how crazy Sam's was, not to mention all the other stores I drove past. We always have water in the house, so I didn't need to get that, but all the isles (middle) was filled with water stacked up and people were rushing to the middle running over us and everything. I did have to snap at a lady, who almost ran over Tyler with the cart. People it is just wind, rain, a child's life is more important - and if you need it that bad, let me give you mine!
So I did load up with beer, wine, chips, beef jerky, and tuna. What a great combo! We have meat in the freezer we can always grill, so no big deal.
It reminds me of the storm that hit Memphis. What was funny about that storm, we didn't get a warning that thing came from no place and then we were out of everything and the stores would not open. Not to mention, that being without power in that city was a little more nerve racking. Here we have had 5 days to prepare, personally I like the out of no where. Because people are more normal and not a pain in the A*&.........
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Running A Marathon
So, I am crazy!
I agreed, excitedly, to run a marathon with a friend. Today, September 10, 2008, am wondering what was I thinking. I am up to 7 miles on Saturday, and during the weeks I am doing 45 min runs. Yesterday my knee popped a couple of times. Crazy crazy crazy. Friend, if you are reading this, you better be up to 7 miles too.
Everything else in Texas is cool. I started a new work from home job. I LOVE IT!
I can't decide if I need to go and register to vote in Texas. This election has be all in an up roar and I can't figure out who is the lesser of two evils. Just makes you wish that someone cool like Gore would try and run again, maybe as part of the Green Party or something like that.
I did hear there is a write in campaign going on for Paris Hilton, that would be a no. But, if I could write someone in, I might just vote for myself. I think I could make a difference in the oval office.
Point is, if I register to vote in Texas, I will have to give up my Tennessee License. I just don't know if I am there.
I agreed, excitedly, to run a marathon with a friend. Today, September 10, 2008, am wondering what was I thinking. I am up to 7 miles on Saturday, and during the weeks I am doing 45 min runs. Yesterday my knee popped a couple of times. Crazy crazy crazy. Friend, if you are reading this, you better be up to 7 miles too.
Everything else in Texas is cool. I started a new work from home job. I LOVE IT!
I can't decide if I need to go and register to vote in Texas. This election has be all in an up roar and I can't figure out who is the lesser of two evils. Just makes you wish that someone cool like Gore would try and run again, maybe as part of the Green Party or something like that.
I did hear there is a write in campaign going on for Paris Hilton, that would be a no. But, if I could write someone in, I might just vote for myself. I think I could make a difference in the oval office.
Point is, if I register to vote in Texas, I will have to give up my Tennessee License. I just don't know if I am there.
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